What I need a prescription for

I decided to have a U2 marathon the other day on my drive to a baby shower. GREAT idea. I was left alone to my thoughts, which have been a mix of numbed, confused, and tumultuous lately. I have felt very little hope- little hope for me, and in translation, little hope for my clients. I've struggled with this in the past, 'Cynical Carm', but this time has been particularly significant for me. In my shuffle of U2 melodies, I got stuck on Miracle Drug. Its' been a favorite for a long time because it is beautiful sounding, but certain lyrics got me this time through:

1. "Freedom has a scent"- its like freedom is real, rather than the cynical thought that even freedom isn't really free.

2. "I've seen enough, I'm not giving up on a miracle drug"- There is some inherent hope in this potentially hopeless lyric. The author is refusing to quit, mustering courage and even some determination. Usually the need of a miracle drug is when nothing else has worked, and the drug in clinical trials is the last option... and one can hope that it will work, but it speaks more to not giving up on the self. I think I need to find what my miracle drug is. What is the thing that will work to heal me, if I boldly let it?

3."There is no failure here sweetheart, just when you quit." -I could practically hear these words coming out of a certain person's mouth, and they have been comforting and inspiring to me throughout this journey thus far. It was encouraging to hear them again, and believe them because I believe the person who has spoken them before. It also inspires me, when playing off of the above lyric, to not quit. Don't give up, not on myself, not on my ability to heal or change or get better.

4 "I've had enough of romantic love, I'd give it up, yeah, I'd give it up for a miracle drug"- There are a lot of things I am realizing I am willing to sacrifice for my own healing. I'm encouraged by this song to do so- to give those things up.

Point is, I could tell you why I like every lyric of the whole song, including the way he relates God and a realization of God with reason, logic, science, and medicine. I truly experience God to a great extent through reason, logic, science, and medicine. But overall, I need to continue to listen to this song and meditate on what it means for me.