blogging from school

The air here smells of new applicants nervous about admissions interviews, and stressed out finals-takers. The information desk attendant exclaims "Happy Wednesday" to all who enter. She delighted me on my interview day.

I am on the rebound and feeling much more refreshed. I've been processing my distorted thinking and changing my mind on my priorities. A good conversation with a friend really helped... there's a lot of history in that particular friendship, and I really respect who she is and what she stands for. I value her very much. Which makes me realize that stressing out over the opinions of people whom I would not describe the same way is truly not worth it.

Of course, re-centering my thoughts has compelled me to return to my yoga routine. And I'm feeling energized about plowing through the rest of the semester, too. I do believe in sound body/sound mind...

and the song of the day is "Goodbye, This is not goodbye" by OtR, for a lot of reasons. My thoughts are provoked but I'm done with blogging for now.

maybe it's the yoga...

but I've had this song with the word "karma" in my head for the past few days (kidding, it's not the yoga. I don't do any of those componants of yoga practice).

Part of that song says ..."I've given all I can, it's not enough. I've given all I can..." That is exactly how I have been feeling lately- wrestling with my perfectionism, trying to find balance, not even being receptive to traits like gratitude. I think fear, doubt, and an expectation of impending failure have consumed my thoughts. I've avoided eating well, and avoided relieving stress and internalized all of this.

Point is- the song concludes by repeating a phrase which is helping me snap out of it. I think I appreciate that coming full circle could simply be snapping back into my right mind. I feel like even the phrase demands that I readjust to my surroundings and adjust my focus. It says:

"For a minute there I lost myself, I lost myself. for a minute there I lost myself........"