On the one hand, even with my non-school friends, all I can seem to talk about is school. Is this thing taking over my life? Sure is. I guess that's understandable, but 5 years of life becoming school-oriented makes Carm a dull girl.
On the other hand, I am so grateful for my upcoming opportunities. June will hold Grad Assistant Research Coordinator stuff, with the time to actually do it well without being distracted. July will hold shadowing some professors, working through more preliminary dissertation proposal stuff, and taking on a work project. That should carry me through the rest of the summer just fine.
On another hand (cause I apparently have more than 2) I am swamped with work and not sure what the fall of 2010 will have for me. Plus I have no idea what my Spring 2010 grades will be, which is disappointing compared with my Fall and Winter 2009 grades.
And finally on another hand (maybe I should have moved to feet) I am still aware of how lucky I am to be in this program and how grateful I am for it- I just know that I need a break for a little while, too.
Ambivalence everywhere. Ideally I'll catch up on organization, sleep, and hobbies/fun over the summer so that I can be refreshed to go for a while.
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